Looking Forward to Looking Back

Sometimes life is harder that I thought
When I'm caught between the ideal and the ought
The real self is what I'm battling for
To know my Jesus and nothing more

All that I thought I knew
Disappeared when I met you
You have the bigger picture in mind
Calling me to set aside what I hope to find

I'm looking forward to looking back
And watching this haze disappear
Seeing you were holding me near
Asking me to face my fears

I'm lonely but not alone
Broken but being reparied
Even if my walk becomes a crawl
I will endure this long haul

How can I wrestle with God and prevail
Without receiving a blessed wound
Cause value is defined by its cost
But never seen until its paid for

So rest more than process

And you'll understand more than you ask

I'm looking forward to looking back
And watching this haze disappear
Seeing you were holding me near
Asking me to face my fears